“I was on stage headlining a comedy show for a thousand people when my girlfriend took her life 6 years ago today.”
Though comedians make a living making audiences laugh, it doesn’t mean they get to escape the dark moments of life that others experience. Six years ago comedian/That Metal Show host Jim Florentine lost his girlfriend Jade to suicide. A traumatic experience that would shake anyone to their core. But when its one’s job to make people smile, figuring out how to do that when there is great sadness can be incredibly difficult.
I first remember hearing this news via The Howard Stern Show, though Stern and Co. didn’t really get into details, he mentioned that Florentine (who regularly appeared on the show) lost his girlfriend. From the nature in which Stern chose his words you could tell it was unexpected and a delicate topic for the comedian.
Six years after that dark day, Florentine shared his story with the website XO Jane giving details about the event, how he was able to come to terms with Jade’s suicide, and ultimately how she came to him in a dream and helped him move on in his life.
Florentine’s story has some particularly gut-wrenching moments:
In the middle of my act, I got this surge that went through my body. It was like I got struck by lightning, but it didn’t hurt. It felt like a soul left my body.
After I get off stage, I had a voicemail from my girlfriend. I thought it was strange because she never called me when I was at work. I listened to her message and it was her crying saying that she needed to be out of pain and was sorry, but she couldn’t take it anymore.
I immediately jumped in my car and drove the hour-long drive in 30 minutes. The whole time I was praying it was just a cry for help. I got to my front door, and I was shaking so much that I could barely get the key in the door. I finally did and ran right to our bedroom. She wasn’t there. I saw a dress laid out on the bed, and there was a note on top of it that said, “This is the dress I won’t be wearing on New Year’s Eve.”
And the moment when his concerns were confirmed:
I finally got the courage to open the door, and I saw her lying on the floor. I immediately called 911 and started to give her CPR. I knew she was dead at that point, but I didn’t stop until the ambulance came because I knew it was the last time my lips would touch hers. Now I realized what that surge was earlier in the night. It was her leaving me.
Florentine also discussed how a Shaman across the country helped him cope with his loss. Afterward Jade came to him in a dream and forced him to move on and go to a Kid Rock concert (of all places) where he found his soulmate and mother of his child.
Well that night as I’m tossing and turning on what I should do, Jade comes to me in my dream for the first time and keeps saying over and over again, “I’m okay, I’m out of pain now. Go tomorrow. You will thank me later.”
Though it contains tragedy and heartache, Florentine’s story is an incredible one to share. It also shows how one handles pain and sadness helps to sculpt the type of person they become.
Via XO Jane